The Strong One

A bit of context for those of you knowing me to primarily be a Haiku-writer-wannabe– today’s words are quite the departure but I read the poem A Smile to Remember by Bukowski yesterday in a link from Suzy’s (wordmusing) blog here:

http://wordmusing.wordpress.com/2013/06/29/a-smile-to-remember-charles-bukowski/

So reading this Bukowski poem yesterday was incredible and this morning I wrote these words about my relationship with my Father. I don’t think I would have tapped into this without my exposure to that particular Bukowski poem yesterday.
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When did you stop being the strong one
The shell of your former self is gaunt and bony
Your virtually useless limbs like dead weight
I can see the sadness behind your eyes when you don’t look at me

These moments remind me how I used to be so afraid of you
The bursts of anger I was terrified of still linger deep
My small scared heart scarred by fear
Certain I preferred it to the pity I am trying not to feel now

When did I become the strong one
The frightened child in me has forgiven you with time
My every action filled with appreciation
I can feel the sadness behind my eyes when I can’t look at you

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4 thoughts on “The Strong One

  1. It just came out of my pen I swear Mike -it must have been building up for some time, this need to address my fears and as you say my sadness. I actually felt better for having put it to paper.

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